How I’m doing (?)

credits: tokyoluv.com

credits: tokyoluv.com

It’s been five months since I opened my new website Land of Rising Sound, yet it doesn’t even feel like it’s been already almost half a year: Despite social networks these days are much more cruel with new realities than it was before, the website itself is going well, it’s starting to have its followers and I get a fair amount of visits everyday, which is good even though there’s still a long way to go to reach my achievement. Working six hours in the morning and other five-six in the afternoon/night isn’t easy, my regular work tires me physically, writing, while pleasant, it’s still psychologically tiring, which is why I’m always pretty destroyed before going to sleep, but ironically, I’m doing this also to change this routine.

My website is only at the beginning after all, and soon something new will be added to it, that will hopefully give it even more exposure, plus many other things. I’m happy with what I’m doing, so I can’t really complain about anything despite feeling pretty weak.

There’s one thing I feel like it’s missing though: Someone telling how I’m doing. Someone that could criticize my work and say if there’s something I’m doing wrong, or simply give an impartial thought on what I write and do with my new project. Like “That article wasn’t so bad, but those few lines were truly horrible” and things like that. Someone that could tell me how I’m doing things, to improve myself and my skills. Yet, I’m no one’s apprentice. I’m not someone who’s learning a musical instrument with a teacher explaining what to do, nor a soccer player with a coach or a student with a professor: Despite admiring the work of a few journalists in my field, the only thing I can do is to improve by myself, seeing mistakes by myself and trying to fix them. It’s maybe the most difficult part of what I’m doing, but it’s also a sign of progression, which is all good.

Though, the day some will tell me how I’m doing may come, if something is gonna change.

– Alex

♪ Phonat – All this time